You're experiencing severe trauma symptoms that are significantly impacting your ability to function, and I want you to know that what you're feeling is a completely normal response to an abnormal situation. Infidelity trauma can be as intense as any other form of trauma, and your nervous system is in a state of high alert trying to protect you. Please don't minimize what you're going through.
Right now, your trauma responses are likely affecting your sleep, appetite, concentration, and ability to feel safe in your own body. You might feel like you're living in a constant state of fight-or-flight, which is exhausting and unsustainable. This level of activation means your nervous system needs immediate support to begin regulating again.
The most important thing to understand is that you're not broken, and you can heal from this. However, you need professional support now - not because there's something wrong with you, but because trauma of this magnitude requires specialized care. A trauma-informed therapist can help you develop immediate coping strategies while working toward longer-term healing.